15/11/2014 (midnight post)

Good evening, yeah already 00:15 and i'm still awake, i don't have any idea what is going on my mind or head, why i should be over think about something that is not so important or necessary for me, especially we don't have any relationship. In addition, i got some feeling about it and added some spicy seasoning in my life, when i have to concern with my goal and dream, suddenly i sick, and damaged so much on my head. It was very strange, suddenly it attacked me last Saturday, when i was attending my parents' friend wedding party, after i followed the bouquet ritual for a single person, my head like strongly hurt and my brain suddenly stopped, moreover like i was unconscious, my body felt so weak and wild headache appeared until now. I had checked myself to hospital and do some research, but it didn't give me any information, on other hand the doctor made a speculation. she said "I'm too tired at the moment, and need an extra rest". Okay i understand, last 2 weeks i attended a morning class in weekdays, although it was very tired, seems it's very important for me, and make some improvement especially in my speaking and writing, forgot to mention, i came to English class. My family already knew about my condition, thanks for any attention and pray, especially my auntie who already helped me to go to doctor and every people that support me, though it is a small number, but i know they give a big impact for me, yeah she already prayed and know about my health. Moreover she already supported me, pray, motivation and some jokes are given by her already made my days when i was so weak. Thank you God, for sending me the Good people surround me,
I know this is prohibited i still awake until now rather than sleep, i want to try it but my brain can not stop for thinking, maybe i already feel in love again, moreover i think too much about my health that affected my head also.
Dear God, thanks for everything, i'm so glad and happy with my current condition, what i need is to be a better person, and better live in the future, and please help me to reach my dream and fight for it, give my healthy back and i will try, get my sword and shield to comeback in war of ielts. hahaha. Even though i don't have enough ability to use, i will fight till the end. Gbu all, me also my family.
:)

Rgds
Your weak person